So yeah, I'm at home and did not go to work today. My reason? I don't feel like it. Lately I've been feeling a bit lazy and unmotivated towards work. I don't know maybe because of the lack of project. I'm craving for the adrenaline rush, racing against time, finding a needle in a haystack, those kinds of things. Or maybe I'm having a quarter life crises. I've been finding meaning from the things that I do and so far i haven't really found anything yet. I don't know if I should pursue my career on what I am doing right now, or find another job that could be more fulfilling. I don't know if I should stay here or find work abroad. There are alot of I don't knows... I'm just lost. Don't get me wrong, I'm actually quite contented with what's happening in my life right now. I couldn't really ask for anything else. But lately, everything seems to be monotonous, plain, boring. No drama, no adventure, no mishaps. It's as if my life stops progressing and it's seems as if I've reach a "fork" in my life, wherein I'm stuck and in order to move on I have to choose which of the branch or direction to take. How i wish i could go back, go back to the time where i was still hungry (career wise), and looking forward to every projects being given to me, but of course, that's quite impossible now. How can I look forward to something I've already done, something that it isn't new to me anymore? Oh gosh, I wish i could leave this loop or phase that I'm in right now. Maybe a little bit of travel or vacation will bring me back. But where to? hmmm.